“I’m coming home, I’m coming home, tell the World, I’m coming home, Let the rain, wash away, all the pain, of yesterday, I know my kingdom awaits, and they’ve forgiven my mistakes, I’m coming home, I’m coming home, tell the World that I’m coming”
So this past Monday, I had a date with this guy who I have known for the past two years… almost. Usually he has Sunday & Monday off from work. Well this past Monday, yesterday, I had off and we had made plans to hang out together. We were going to go to a movie and lunch/dinner. I even offered to pay for everything.
So it was set. Monday at around 12 he would come over, if my mom wasn’t home, we would have some alone time and the after go to the movies & then to eat. I woke up extra early, excited and in an amazing mood. Cleaned the apartment a little, made it tidy and smell good. Went to go trimmed my facial hair really good, showered and cleaned everything really well. I put on lotion on to make me nice and soft, put on some really nice sexy designer underwear too. So I get ready, comb my hair and made it look the best I ever had. Brush my teeth TWICE!! I was ready. I looked good. I was actually impressed that I looked pretty good.
I waited… 12 came around and I get a text asking me what my address is. So of course I get really excited and I tell him. And I figure since he’s just now asking me, he prbaly won’t be here for about an hour. Cool no problem. I waited… and waited… and waited… so in an effort to not sound stalkerish, I text him asking him what movie we were going to see… no reply… Okay, maybe he’s busy driving… 3 o’clock rolls around and my sisters are home from school, so is my mom… so sex isn’t going to happen and I was getting a little worried.
Its about 3:30 and I text my bestie Erica because at this point, I’ve been stood up. I tell her what happened and I’m crying… 
So she comes over at around 6 o’clock. We’re hanging out and what not. Then she texts him from her phone and he answers pretty much right away. That made my stomach sink. She goes ahead and tells him off and I just can’t believe what happen.
Later on, she’s going home and I take a walk around my complex… BAD IDEA!! I started bawling my eyes out and it just all hit me. I called her and pretty much cried on the phone. I felt so hurt from being stood up. Especially because I really liked him. He seemed like an awesome person and it was just… I don’t know.
My bestie, being the awesome bestie she is, told me that its his loss and that he obviously wasn’t being honest an just looking for sex and just a jerk. The angry part of me believes it completely. But the sad part of me thinks different. And as hard as it may be, I think its time that I forget about him. I honestly don’t think a guy has ever made me hurt like he did. And that sucks because when it wasn’t about sex, he was awesome. He was fun to talk to and I had a great time. I guess sex was just more important to him. I don’t know.
But the ridiculous thing is that if he were to text me in like a month or two, I wouldn’t turn him away. I’d probably just be a little distant. Which you can’t blame me for honestly.
But during this time, I realized something. I’m looking for something that I already have. I have someone who cares about me. I actually have quite a few people. But this guy that actually cares about me, so far he’s perfect. And I’m hoping that I get to see him soon. I get to hold him like how I’ve dreamt of. 
He’s my Beliezian hubby. I can’t wait until I can go home to him… Muah!
Alexis Segura
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