I’m sad… And I wanna cry… Actually… I probably will cry after I’m done posting this…

So as you guys have noticed, I’ve been adding more photos to my blog & not writing as much… I figured, I have another year with this blog might as well make it fun & exciting & what not right?! Haha. So more than likely, you’re going to be seeing a lot more pictures. Some are going to be pretty… Well… Pretty revealing. I won’t ever show any peen, but I will show booty. Haha. So be prepared! Haha.

LMAO!!

So guess what guys? I just bought my new phone the incredible and awesome HTC EVO!!

Well I just wanted to say hey and let you guys know I have the new phone I’ve have been waiting for.

I’ve realized that these past few days, I really don’t want to be home anymore. I don’t want to live here. It sucks because I’ve worked so hard to be a good person & now living at home is definitely something I don’t want. I’m 20 years old, & to people, I’m sure I’m a failure, working a dead-end job where I hope to become a manager one day but I know that it isn’t going to happen because I’m not qualified & don’t have experience. I get paid very little & I work so hard. So moving out on my own doesn’t seem realistic at the moment. But I just can’t stand to live at home anymore. I love my mom with all my heart, she’s the most amazing female I know. My sisters are awesome too. I love them. My dad on the other hand…

I don’t want to say that if he were to die, I wouldn’t care, because I would. But I just don’t like him. After what he’s put our family though these past 6 months, I just can’t look at him & feel the love I did when I was a kid. It just doesn’t work. When he’s home, I can’t stand even looking at him. I haven’t talked to him in months now. To be honest, I really don’t want him & I to be in any type of relationship. It just… It’s done. 

My mom is in the middle of looking for a job. Tomorrow she has an interview at the post office & if it’s a full time job, she will take it. Only problem is… It’s 3 hours away. I can’t move 3 hours away from my job & my life. I don’t want to stay with my dad either. So I’m lost. I don’t know what to do. My selfish, self-centered part wants that job to be part time & have my mom stay here in this area. But my other side which is the side I act on, is saying please let this job be what my mom wants. I want her to be happy. Here with my dad, that’s not happiness.

So idk. I guess I will figure something out. I just know I don’t want to stay with my dad. So whatever. Haha… :-/

Alexis Segura

I wanted to write this blog because I was looking at everything I’ve ever written… W O W ! ! Haha. There is a lot of stuff that I’ve wrote about. Most of it was pointless & other stuff was random, but it’s whatever. Haha.

I’m no exactly sure what I want to do with this blog anymore. My entries have been more & more spaced out & when I do write about something, it’s kinda just… Idk pointless. I love my blog, don’t get me wrong, it shows how I’ve grown (kinda), & idk. I just have grown to like it. It’s part of me. But I have ran out of things to do with it. Maybe, I’ll do something with music. Whenever I hear a song I like or whatever, I’ll do a review on the song. Idk.

If you guys have any suggestions for what I should do, leave me a comment or send me a message on my Facebook or tweet me. I’m always up for anything and everything. Haha. =)

Alexis

I’m mad!!!

*this was all it was supposed to say*

Today I’m at my grandma’s apartment & it feels so good. Too much stuff has been going on in my life & I just needed some love. I needed to be loved & I’m glad I got to see my grandma. She was just the right person to see.

I feel so loved. Her looking at me & smiling the way she does, it made me warm. I know that someone in my life loves me. And even though she doesn’t know I’m gay & I know she would never approve of it, it makes me feel good she loves me. I don’t feel hurt or abandon or anything.

When I’m here, I lose all my pain. It all goes away & I feel so free. And I don’t want to leave, but I know hiding here with my grandma isn’t going to solve anything. But still, it makes me feel good.

I don’t know what the point of this entry was, I don’t know if it even makes sense. I just know that I need to release all this sadness I have inside & all this anger & I just need to be loved. I love my grandma. She’s the best.

Prince_Basil

Got to let it show
I’m coming out
I want the world to know
I got to let it show

There’s a new me coming out
And I just had to live
And I wanna give
I’m completely positive
I think this time around
I am gonna do it
Like you never do it
Like you never knew it
Ooh, I’ll make it through

The time has come for me
To break out of the shell
I have to shout
That I’m coming out

I’m coming out
I want the world to know
Got to let it show
I’m coming out
I want the world to know
I got to let it show

I’m coming out
I want the world to know
Got to let it show
I’m coming out
I want the world to know
I got to let it show

(more…)

Okay, maybe you guys haven’t been waiting for it, but I really have. And I’m excited to finally have made the video.

There was a little bit of drama with my video because I spent all this time on YouTube uploading it & it processing & whatever. I check back to watch the video & I get this big ol’ DELETED sign. I was like wtf?!?! It was because the video was over 10 minutes. Why?! I’ve seen other videos that have been longer then 10 minutes. It was just a disaster. So I tried vimeo & it’s up. It’s live & it great.

So go check out my video. Leave me a comment & tell me what you think. Tell me if you like, if you don’t, what I should have done different, idk. Just everything. Haha. I know that I messed up a few times. Let me know if you can spot my mistakes. Haha. =) 

Alright… Click here to watch my new video. I will warn you it is about 20 minutes long. It’s actually like 19 minutes & 1 seconds but yeah. ENJOY!!!

Prince_Basil

I’m tired. I’m sick. I’m not feeling good. EVERYTHING! I really just want to get away. Just leave for about a week. Go somewhere where I can have fun. Where I don’t have to think of anything that’s going on right now. Does a place like that exsist?

I want to go to a place where money isn’t an issue. Where working isn’t necessary. Where I could just relax & not worry about anything. Honestly, I think the only place like that is my bed. And it only works when I’m asleep. I guess I’m going to have to learn how to sleep forever… Or at least for long periods of time. So I could get that safe, comfortable feeling.

Prince_Basil

So last night I posted this rant if you will, about my dad & my mom’s fight. Well, today I was showering & it hit me. If they can’t solve this then more then likely divorce will be in the future. And I’ve said before that I don’t want that for anyone. But if it has to happen, then it has to happen.

So I realized that I’m going to have to choose which parent I want to live with. My mother who I love till the end of time. Or my father who I do care about, but we don’t see eye to eye about 90% of the time. You figure, “Oh, he’s going to pick his mom, of course!” But I’m not sure. Like I said, I love my mom to death. But if I’m with my mom, then I will never grow. My mom will take care of me & be my mom. If I live with my dad, he’ll be at work a lot & that means I’ll be home alone most of the time. So therefore I will be forced to grow up & start doing things on my own. I won’t have my dad there all the time to tell me what I need to do like my mom. So I will be able to grow.

But at the same time, its like… Idk. I’m a mommy’s boy. I love my mom & I could never imagine her not being here with me. And I know that it may hurt her if I choose my dad over my mom & she might feel like I’m leaving because its her fault, but its not. I just don’t want to upset anyone. My dad may not show it, but if I choose my mom, he’ll be alone & I don’t want that either. That’s why I think that divorce isn’t an option, but idk. I guess I will find out tonight what my parents are going to do. I’m so upset. I want to cry so bad. =(

Prince_Basil

Here is a small little preview of my video I’ve been working on! I hope you guys like it!!! =) The actual video is about 20 minutes long. Haha. But I’m dancing to FOUR songs. So here’s a little clip of the first one! =)

Prince_Basil’s Clip! 

Why the hell are you fucking arguing? Just man up to the fucking situation you’re in. Tell your fucking wife you love her & that you were wrong. Grow up & act you damn age. Honestly. Start treating her like she your fucking wife and not like she’s some ignorant big headed bitch, because she not! I’m tired of this shit, its been going on long enough. You need to fucking have the damn balls to admit you’re wrong. Wtf you mean you don’t know what to tell her? Umm… I an give you a big hint… SORRY!!! I really don’t understand!! What is your fucking problem? No… I am NOT going to shut up! I don’t give a flying fuck if you’re my fucking dad. I was always taught to stick up for my family & take care of them, well, that’s exactly what I’m fucking doing now! Taking care of my mom since obviously you can’t and you’re being a little pussy ass bitch! What you need to do is get the hell out of here. Bye bitch!

So much do I wish I could tell my dad that right there. I wish I could. Why? Well in case you haven’t read my other post called Problems… My parents have not spoken to each other & they had this big argument & what not. Just go read the post, its better anyways…

So I just heard my dad & mom “talk” about what was going on. Well, my dad was being a jerk about the whole thing & it pisses me off because he treats my mom like crap & treats his FEMALE employees waaaaayyyy better. So what the fuck? Umm.. I think there is a problem here & I’m not going to allow it. My dad pisses me off & I just can’t pretend that I like him. I really cannot stand him at all.

I’ve said before that I won’t allow my parents to get divorced. But honestly, I don’t give a fuck. I would rather my mom be divorced & happy then married & miserable. She doesn’t deserve this. I love my mom way to much. So that’s the newest news I got for you about my parents! Ugh!!!

Prince_Basil

Click here to watch Timaya’s very funny video, The Beat Down! Oh chile!!! Yassssss!!! Lmao! I love the ending!!! I can’t stop laughing. =)

Prince_Basil

I have a question for all of my Beyoncé stans & all my dancing fans & whatever. The question is: Would it be a good idea to make a “YouTube” video of me dancing to MAYBE four songs? I know I’m DEFINITELY going to dance to FOUR, because that’s all I know so far. But of course I will learn how to dance more if I need to. But my plan was this:

1. Intro/Crazy In Love (Crazy Mix) – The Beyoncé Experience
2. Get Me Bodied (Extended Mix) – The Beyoncé Experience
3. Deja Vu – The Beyoncé Experience (I’m not sure if I want to do this one or if I want to do the one from I Am…Yours. Help me pick.)
4. Single Ladies (Put A Ring On It) (Extended Mix) – I Am…Yours

I know I’m definitely doing those four & its all non-stop. So as soon as one song is over then next one will start & I will dance to pretty much everything.

If you haven’t seen my other two video, PLEASE CHECK THEM OUT!!! 

Single Ladies
Get Me Bodied

Thanks, I’ll also include video performances of the four songs I want to do. =)

Prince_Basil (more…)

So, recently, my parents have stopped talking to each other. They got mad at each other and now they pretty much don’t talk.

My dad came home from work one night, really late and it bothered my mom. So she asked where had he been. He said he went to have some drinks with his co-workers. My mom asked if he couldn’t call to let her know he was going to be out late. He said yeah he could have but didn’t. So of course my mom got pissed.

Well generally you would think that a small little fight like that would end in a few days. I’d say about two at the very most. Well, this was pretty much the final straw for my mom. She really didn’t appreciate the fact that he’s always ignoring her or treating her like shit, but then one of his employees call, mind you he has female employees, he’s always there talking and making sure everythings good.

So today, we finally ganged up on my mom & we found out what was really wrong. And now we have to go over and gang up on my dad. I just can’t believe that he’s being such a jerk. Why wouldn’t he apologize and get it over with? All I know is that they better not divorce because that’s not an option. I’m not having it & I’m sure my sisters aren’t going to allow it either.

At one point my mom thought my dad MIGHT be having an affair, of course he’s not, she says but idk. All I know is that he better watch it because if I find out any of this shit is true, I will more then like beat my dad at the least. I don’t care what happens, he better watch it.

Ugh! But I’m just…I want to cry but I can’t because I’m too mad. What do I do? Give me some input! Thanks for letting me vent a little.

Prince_Basil

Hey EVERYONE!!! What’s going on? Well, I just wanted to let everyone know that I changed my blog. A Day In The Life of Prince_Basil is no longer being hosted at Blogger.com. Its being hosted by WordPress.com. Why you may be asking? Well, let me get to it damn it!! Just kidding. haha.

Okay, so the reason I decided to change from Blogger to WordPress is because its time for a new start. I love my Blogger account, don’t get me wrong. But I feel like its time to move on to something better and bigger and whatever. I feel like WordPress offers more features that I could use for my blog. Its a nice and clean cut website. Everything is pretty understandable. I love it. I get a mobile version of my website whenever I get on it from my phone which is amazing.

I wanted to move my blog over on the New Year, but I figured that I would start now so I could avoid any problems I may experience. I could have everything down before the New Year starts. Now my Blogger account isn’t going to be deleted. Or course not!! But I will stop posting new blog entries there from here on out! The link for my Blogger has also changed. It is http://www.princebasil2009.blogspot.com — I felt the 2009 was well fitting seeing as how I had such an active blog in 2009 and that’s where the end is for Blogger and I. And from now on, when you type in http://princebasil.net it will take you to my new and better blog site.

I hope you guys can join me here & I will continue to post like I always do. I love you all and I will see you soon!! Thanks!!

Prince_Basil