Grandma’s Place
Today I’m at my grandma’s apartment & it feels so good. Too much stuff has been going on in my life & I just needed some love. I needed to be loved & I’m glad I got to see my grandma. She was just the right person to see.
I feel so loved. Her looking at me & smiling the way she does, it made me warm. I know that someone in my life loves me. And even though she doesn’t know I’m gay & I know she would never approve of it, it makes me feel good she loves me. I don’t feel hurt or abandon or anything.
When I’m here, I lose all my pain. It all goes away & I feel so free. And I don’t want to leave, but I know hiding here with my grandma isn’t going to solve anything. But still, it makes me feel good.
I don’t know what the point of this entry was, I don’t know if it even makes sense. I just know that I need to release all this sadness I have inside & all this anger & I just need to be loved. I love my grandma. She’s the best.
Prince_Basil
That’s good. You neeeed some time like that. Eventually things will settle down and become what they are suppose to be. I wish I could be there more. Know what to tell you when you are confused. Just know I am always here,, ALWAYS. I may not be able to tell you want you want to hear but I’ll have the ear.
“Will you think that you’re all alone
When no one’s there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary, rest your head
I’m permanent”
Regardless, Of who walks in and out of your life.
Who breaks your heart and who mends it for a short while.
I will always be there :]
I just want you to know I AM here and I’m not going anywhere.
I know what your going through Alexis, I’ve beeen there. I don’t wish it on anybody.
You are an amazing person. Forget anybody who tries to tell you different.
I Love you, seriously.
Remember that.
Thanks. =)