Décisions
So last night I posted this rant if you will, about my dad & my mom’s fight. Well, today I was showering & it hit me. If they can’t solve this then more then likely divorce will be in the future. And I’ve said before that I don’t want that for anyone. But if it has to happen, then it has to happen.
So I realized that I’m going to have to choose which parent I want to live with. My mother who I love till the end of time. Or my father who I do care about, but we don’t see eye to eye about 90% of the time. You figure, “Oh, he’s going to pick his mom, of course!” But I’m not sure. Like I said, I love my mom to death. But if I’m with my mom, then I will never grow. My mom will take care of me & be my mom. If I live with my dad, he’ll be at work a lot & that means I’ll be home alone most of the time. So therefore I will be forced to grow up & start doing things on my own. I won’t have my dad there all the time to tell me what I need to do like my mom. So I will be able to grow.
But at the same time, its like… Idk. I’m a mommy’s boy. I love my mom & I could never imagine her not being here with me. And I know that it may hurt her if I choose my dad over my mom & she might feel like I’m leaving because its her fault, but its not. I just don’t want to upset anyone. My dad may not show it, but if I choose my mom, he’ll be alone & I don’t want that either. That’s why I think that divorce isn’t an option, but idk. I guess I will find out tonight what my parents are going to do. I’m so upset. I want to cry so bad. =(
Prince_Basil
