Smile
Everytime I see your face
Making me fall in love
With every word you say
The thought of your hands
Touching my skin

Smile
Everytime I hear your voice
Making my heart skip a beat
As you can do to any man
Making me feel special
Saying things only you can say

Smile
Everytime I dream of you
Making me picture what life could be
The thought that tastes so sweet
That will be cherished always from me
Until you give me something more
This I will never let go

Smile.

I’m frustrated. Super, extra frustrated! And I don’t really mean mentally. I mean yes kinda, but not exactly. I mean more like physically & emotionally.

So I’m going to just put it out there, I masterbate. Often too. And I don’t want this blog entry to turn out into a dirty nasty entry. Its not, I’m just stating a fact that is relevant to the blog. So what I’m trying to say is that I’m frustrated. Sexually that is. Masterbation isn’t enough anymore. It just feels like… Well nothing. I don’t feel anything from it anymore. I want to, not just have sex, but be intimate with someone. I’m sure if I was really looking, I could find someone to have sex with right now. Just any person. But that’s not what I want & that’s what’s making my body frustrated. I’m ready. My body is CALLING for someone to be intimate with. It’s been waiting patiently & I think it can’t wait anymore. Its just wishing someone I care for deeply was with me.

And its not so much sex. Just the closeness that I want. To lay in bed & just stare endlessly into the eyes for my love. Or just for him to hold me or me to hold him as we sleep. My body is calling out for someone else’s body to join, but no one is picking up.

I guess this is one of those things that you kinda have to either stick out & hope it goes away until the time presents itself or go and screw around with every guy I see hoping it will fill the need. I don’t know…

Prince_Basil

P.S. I hope you guys take the time out to watch my Single Ladies video I made. It took me 8 tries but I finally got it done. Here’s the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uYGjlWUhoGo — Thanks!!

So the other day on Twitter, one of my friends (@the_Soz) mentioned something about HIV & what not. I wanted to talk about it but I was suuuuupppeeerrr tired!! So I decided I’d blog about since that is another thing I could do. Haha.

So I know that people are kinda ify about it. And they think that just because someone has HIV/AIDS they could get it by sharing a drink or even just touching eaching (e.x. Hand shake, hug, kiss, etc.) and they get all paranoid and what not. I think that of course being HIV- is a wonderful thing but I don’t think HIV- people should treat HIV+ different. They’re people all the same & the deserve to be treated the same.

When people ask, Would you get with someone if they have HIV? I always say yes. I don’t think that just because they have that virus, they shouldn’t be loved. Of course, we won’t be having sex as often as people think you would, but it doesn’t matter to me. I feel that being HIV+ doesn’t change who you are. Its just something extra they have to deal with. It doesn’t define them. I kinda feel its like being gay. When you come out to someone you hope they still be your friend because you don’t want them to think being gay is what makes you, you. To me its like being gay is just one of my qualities. If they like ME because of ME, then they shouldn’t stop liking me when I tell them I’m gay. Its not going to change anything. I feel that’s the same with HIV. If I like you before I now you have HIV and then you tell me you have it, I’m going to continue being your friend & going to treat you the same. I’m not going to let that change our friendship. I love people. When people are real & TRUE & honest, I feel that they are perfect & I love people like that.

I hope this post made some sense because I don’t know. Haha. Leave me a comment on what you think. I’d love to hear your opinion. =) Thanks!!

Prince_Basil

I MADE IT!!! =) THIS IS MY 100th BLOG POST!! =) WHOOP WHOOP!!! Yay!!!! I can’t believe it. I remembered when I first started. It was Xanga. You guys remember that? Haha. Yeah. Then I figured out how to post on here. Sh*t, I even moved all my posts over here. Haha. I remember when I had made my layout & I liked it, then I changed it again and again, etc. I remember how the day of my birthday I wrote out this long blog about how it was the worst day ever. I remember how just recently I got my own domain name. Haha. I’m so happy. =) I love this blog sooooo much. It holds a lot of memories. I’d like to think I grew up a little bit with this blog. Maybe I did, maybe I didn’t, but I’d like to think I did. Haha. =)

But I hope you guys have enjoyed my blog as much as I have enjoyed writing it. I wanted to do something big for my 100th blog that would be carried out into the next few blogs. But I have nothing. I was thinking of having a guest writer that I would choose, but then this wouldn’t be A Day In The Life of… PRINCE_BASIL anymore. So I don’t know yet exactly. But I have a little task. Anyone who reads my blog, comment here about which blog entry was your favorite & why.  Which one meant something to you, whatever. Haha. Please please please. I’m asking really nicely. Haha. =) Thanks for sticking by me & I hope there are hundreds more to come. =) 

Prince_Basil

Can you see something wrong with this picture/information/tracklist? Just take a small guess. (Jimmy, you can’t guess. You already know.) Nope… Its not Single Ladies. That’s the very last one. Nope, not Deja Vu or Crazy In Love. Here’s a hint, I’ve said it was going to be my wedding many times… No, not Halo. Hmm.. You guys aren’t good at this… One last guess… Nope, not Satellites. It was Smash Into You. Do you see it anywhere on there? Of course not. That’s because its not there. I’m very disappointed. Smash Into You I a really amazing song. I love it to death. The whole reason why I want this DVD was to be able to watch Single Ladies & Smash Into You over & over & over again. Why? Because those two songs are my life! But whatever, I guess I will have to deal.

Oh & another thing, look at the release date. Nov. 25th on DVD & Dec. 8th Blu-Ray. Umm… Why does it have to take a longer time for Blu-Ray? Huh?! That just means I have to pay for the DVD version & the Blu-ray version. Ugh!

If you’re reading this from my Posterous, I’ve included a live version of Smash Into You that I listen to all the time. Hope you like it & leave me a comment if you want me to send it to you. Idk if anyone wants it, but in case you do. =)

Prince_Basil

I have some news for you guys. So two nights ago I was scheduled to work 6:00pm to 10:00pm. Well, my family had this dinner with my aunt & other family members. Ever since I started working at PetSmart, I haven’t really done any family activities. They’ll go to the movies & they go out to eat. I’m always at work. So like I was saying, my family was having this nice dinner & what not. I really wanted to go with them. So I decided that I would call in & see if I could get someone to cover my shift for me. Well, the manager said it was fine. He said that he got someone to cover for me so I could go. Cool. Now I can go to dinner with my family. Well, 5 minutes later I’m all dressed & ready to go, the girl who is supposed to take my shift calls me & tells me, sorry I have plans & I can cover today, but if you want, I’ll take your shift on Saturday. I was like, umm… No. I needed today off. So then I call PetSmart again thinking maybe they could find someone else. Another manager answers. I tell her the whole story & she says in the rudest voice you’ve ever heard, “Well, what are you going to do then?” I gave her attitude right back & said, “Well I guess I’m coming in.” And I hung up. I started crying because I was so pissed. I couldn’t believe it. So I went to work & whatever. 

But this is what I want to get into. I’m their hardest work/employee. I’m always 15 minutes early. I don’t have a car so I ride my bike to work which shows that I’m responsible because even though I don’t have a car, I’m there & early. And on top of that, they always call me to cover other people’s shifts or stay later. So tell me this, do you think its fair that I never call in. I think I called in one time because I was in urgent care because I was peeing blood. And even then the same rude manager asked if maybe I could come in later. I was like, ummm… I’m peeing every 5 seconds & its always blood. And if I’m going to be on register, having that problem isn’t going to be very good. So she let me stay. Another time I was late by 2 hours. I was looking at the wrong schedule & totally didn’t even see it was wron. She called me & told me I was supposed to be there 2 hours ago, so I hurried up & got there within 15 minutes. So yes, I have messed up once & called in once. But out of a whole year working there & when other people call in all the time & I put in so much more, I’d expect to at least get one day off when I call in. But no, of course not. The one day I want to call in, no one is available. So wtf?! Why? I don’t understand. I work the hardest, I do everything I’m told & I just don’t understand. So I made a decision that from now on, I wasn’t going to be covering anyone’s shifts anymore. And to get them even more angry, I was going to make sure I answer the phone when they call & let them know I can’t. Ugh!!! It pisses me off.

But let me know your opinion. Do you think I’m over reacting? Or do you think that since I am a hard worker & I go the extra mile, I should have been at least give one night off when I called in? I know it was kinda short notice, like 3 hours before my shift, but take into consideration that according to them, I am their hardest worker. So let me know what you think. =) Thanks.

Prince_Basil

So I wanted to write a post about my twitter account. I noticed that lately I’ve been a lot more on it & tweeting & what not. My friend Jimmy says he’s an addict & I’m not sure if he’s serious or just kidding. But I really do think I’m an addict. When I’m at work, all I can think about is tweeting. Reading peoples tweets. Attempting to send a message to people I know will never talk to me. Haha. But I like it. I have many friends on there & I love reading what they have to say.

So pretty much the question I have for you guys is: Do you have a Twitter addiction?

Thanks for reading. I will see you guys soon!! =)

Prince_Basil

So just recently I decided that I wanted to trim my body hair. I wanted it to still be there but be shorter. So I decided to trim it. (Above picture) Well the trim is nice. I love it. But the problem is that its really noticeable. I’m a hairy person & well I trimmed it all & its really different. I want to wear shorts & I want to show off my legs but my parents don’t know I do that. They don’t know that I trim my leg hair or my pubic hair or anything. So ever since I trimmed it, I’ve made sure I’ve wore pants. My parents look at me funny when I say I’m going to shave my legs. Of course I’m just kidding, but they make a weird face like they’re disgusted. So idk if they will be like… Werided out. 

So I need your guy’s advice. Should I just one day wear shorts & let them see on their own? Or should I tell them & show them? Idk so I hope you all can tell me. Haha. Thanks.

Prince_Basil

So yesterday, I think, I posted a blog about me being lonely & sad & whatnot. Well, I still am. But I’ve come to realize that I shouldn’t need a man to be happy. I know its hard to really believe that since I’m miserable without one, but I’m going to try to see things in a better point of view. I was trying to see my life as a guy whom is in a relationship. Someone who wants to be loved. I just wished that I was the type of person who didn’t have trouble looking for people to love. I wish my time would come so I could be in love.

And I don’t want to offend a friend of mine that I really do love. I love him more then anything. I really do. But there are a few small details that… Well that makes it kinda difficult/not an option right now. I know that my feelings are true because this time it was different. I was his friend first. I got to know him. I got to see what he was like & what he was about. He’s amazing & he doesn’t judge me for anything. I’m sure I’ve mentioned somethings that he’s like, “Wtf?” But he doesn’t. He just accepts it & continues being my friend the way I’d always want. And believe me, being friends with me is probably more work then anyone would imagine. But he can handle it. I love him for that.

But like everything in my life, there’s a road block, & I have to figure out a way to get around. And like every road block I’ve had, only time will help me figure out a way.

So pretty much the whole idea of this post is that I love him. I’m in love with him. I wish I was with him. But since that isn’t possible & no other guy wants to be the type I am looking for, I decided that I’m going to live like a happy single dude… Scratch that. I’m going to be a happy single dude until the man of my dreams comes into my life. And I hope the man I was just talking about is the man of my dreams. =/

Well I will talk to you guys later. Thanks for paying attention & reading. Bye.

Prince_Basil

Earlier today, I had this sudden flash of saddness. I don’t know why but it I just felt really depressed. A thought came into my mind at the time. It was the fact that I’m still single.

I’ve always been the type of person who always has wanted to have a boyfriend. I’ve always had a life plan…sorta. I dreamed of getting married by the age of 21. I’ve always wanted to be married & stay married for the rest of my life with the same person. I don’t believe in divorice. I think that is so unacceptable. That thought would never cross my mind.

But, going back to the subject at hand, I’ve been single for a long time. I haven’t found Mr. Right. It sucks because I know that if I can just find him everything would be just perfect. I’ve tired everything. I looked for someone, I’ve waited for people to come find me, nothing. It just sucks because I’m going to be 20 in April & its too late to find someone & get married. I lost out. And it sucks more because I know amazing people that I know I can see myself being with in the future. My friends are amazing. They really are. I love them all. But that’s not enough. I don’t just want to love my friends. I want to be in love with someone. I want to wake up in the morning & know that he’s taking care of me & I’m taking care of him. I want to be able to hold him & kiss him. Tell him I love him. Everything. I want that. And people tell me, it will happen when its supposed to happen. But how long do I have to wait? Honestly… I just don’t know. Sometimes I feel its because its my looks. Other times I think its the way I talk. Or the way I walk. Or the way I act. I don’t know what it is. I just want someone. =/ Idk. I’m lonely. I go to sleep feeling so alone. I hold my pillow & I sleep as if I was hold someone. Sometimes I dream that I’m holding different friends of mine. I just… I want to be loved. Truly loved.