Coming Out
So I’ve been reading other people’s blogs and I’ve seen that a couple of people have been writing about coming out. Now I haven’t came out to my parents, but that doesn’t mean I don’t want to. I just don’t know how. I’ve always just wrote whoever a letter telling them I’m gay and that be it. But I can’t do that with my parents because its just not the same.
I’ve never really hidden the fact that I’m gay. I just never brought it to their attention. I figure that if someone has the balls to ask me if I’m gay, I’ll have the balls to answer them truthfully. Of course my parents haven’t ever asked me, so I haven’t ever told them. But at the same time I think that I’m not ready to tell them. Not because I may magically “decide” to stop being gay, but because if they don’t accept the fact that I’m gay, one, I could be kicked out, and two,if I don’t get kicked out but they don’t like the fact that I’m gay, things will become very awkward around them.
I planned on telling my parents that I’m gay once I started my own life. Because IF they decided to not accept me, I’m not living with them and I won’t need to feel awkward because they wouldn’t be around. I’d have my own life and I’d be able to do what I wanted.
Don’t get me wrong, I love my parents. They’re awesome. But face it, me being gay could be the biggest disappointment in their life. I mean, I’m sure my dad would like grandkids one day that carry my last name but to be honest, I don’t want my last name. I want to get married and take the name of my future husband. And seeing as how I’m his only son, I feel like I’d be letting him down.
At the same time, I’ve always been angry with people on he DL (down-low) but what makes me so much better? People on the DL don’t tell anyone their gay, I don’t tell anyone who may tell my parents. Pretty much the same thing.
I just wish their was an easier way to do this. Where if they didn’t accept me, I could just press rewind and change the plan. Sometimes, I tell myself that I’ll probably never be happy if I don’t tell my parents or if they don’t accept me. I know I’d be a very lonely person. No joke. =( but yeah.
I guess this is the ending of this post. I hope you enjoyed it. Thanks for reading.
Prince_Basil
P.S. Give me some feedback on what you think would work great for coming out and making it easier. I appreciate it. =)
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Yeah its tough.