Pretty Random + Its Better…
My best friend just posted a blog entry about Justin Timberlake being amazing. Psshhh!!! She must not know that Beyoncé is amazing. So please for give her. =)
(Check out her blog at http://www.faithlovehopee.blogspot.com – and follow it!!)
E. Lynn Harris
As you guys know, I write under the name Prince_Basil. Well, let me tell you about where I got the name from. I first “discovered” I was… Not straight the summer before high school started. Back then, I used to call myself “bi” because I thought I still liked girls. Well, that’s when I started exploring the gay culture more. I started doing research to see if you can become gay or I you’re born like that or whatever. During my research, I came across this little book called,
I bought the book a few days later and read it. I moved on to the next one and the one after that and after that and etc. I became real close to a character name Raymond Winston Tyler, Jr. He was my favorite. He was everything I wanted to be. In some ways, I feel like I’m just like him. Well, I noticed that I also have a split personality. I have the nice, caring side who helps everyone and anyone who needs it. He’s more sensitive and more emotional then you think. He’s Alexis. But at the same time, I have this other side of me where I can be a bitch, I can give you so much attitude, you won’t know what to do with it. I can bad mouth you and tell you off. I don’t care what anyone says I speak my mind. And well… I felt like that was someone else in itself. So I remembered a character in E. Lynn Harris’s books named John Basil Henderson, and I always felt like he was some what of a jerk to Raymond. Well, I become a jerk, to say the least, and so I named him Basil. Prince was added before Basil because I’ve always wanted to feel like I was part of royalty. Not so much king, but more so prince. Kinda silly yeah I know.
But back to the subject at hand. If it wasn’t for Mr. E. Lynn Harris, I think I would have had a harder time in my life trying to accept the fact that I’m gay. Why? Well because he helped me discover that I wasn’t alone in the world. I wasn’t the only one who had feelings for the same sex. There were/are other people out there who are gay/lesbian/bi-sexual/transgendered. He helped me see that being gay isn’t the end of the world, (’cause believe me, I thought it was). He helped me deal with people in my life who didn’t fully accept me for me. He helped me come out to my friends and a few family members. If it wasn’t for Mr. Harris, I think I would have a terrible life or not one period.
There have been so many times when I’ve wanted to kill myself. But I thought about how Raymond would handle it or at least how Mr. Harris would want him to handle it and it would make me feel better. It would make me feel like there is hope.
Haha. I remember one time I emailed E. Lynn Harris. I told him my story and how he helped me. I got an email back saying, Thank you for writing me. You can be assure that I will read every single email I receive. Thank you for supporting E. Lynn Harris. I was kinda sad at first because I poured my heart out to him, but then I realized that he’s a busy man and he’s probably working on the next book with Raymond and Basil.
I don’t want to sound disrespectful at all because that’s not what I’m this entry is about. But to me, E. Lynn Harris was a bigger loss then Michael Jackson. Don’t get me wrong, I love Michael Jackson. I can dance to his music all day. Sing to it too. But I didn’t grow up with Michael, I grew up with Mr. Harris and I’m truly sadden that he’s gone. He was an amazing person and his work of art will always be remembered.
I love you Mr. Harris. You’re truly missed.
Alexis Segura & Prince_Basil
NO H8!!!
P.S. The third picture is all the ones they have on the NO H8 website. Haha. I told you it was a ton!!! =)
Stupid Financial Aid
My Bestie + Other Info!!
Now I was going to get real nasty right now and be rude and pretty much a bitch. I actually had attached a picture of an ass and wrote under the picture
Kiss my ass! But I thought things through and I know I’m way more mature then that. So I’m simply going to tell that person that I’m sorry you feel like you can’t like me, but I kinda don’t care. I’m not trying to get people to like me if they don’t want to. My bestie and I get alone amazingly most of the time and when we don’t its okay. We fight. Every couple does and yes we’re not together as a couple but it pretty much feels like I’m married to this hoe. And see that’s our thing too. We call each other every name in the book because we know we’re just kidding. I know that when she calls me a douche pouch (because douches are actually pouches and not bags) we’re just kidding. If she calls me a slut or a hoe or whatever, I know she’s just kidding. And the same goes for me. If I call her this and that she knows we’re just messing around. Why? Because I’ve only known her for hmm?? 8 years and I know that we can do that.So I guess what I’m trying to say is if you don’t like me, that’s awesome. I’m not trying to be your friend. I already have my best friend. Anyone who has a problem with that is just going to have to deal because I’m here for good & I’m here to stay. So that being said…you can go ahead and tell my mom about my choice of religion. Or what I believe in or whatever. I’m sure she won’t care seeing as she already knows. Matter of fact, here’s my email, I actually just created one specifically for this blog. Prince.Basil.90@gmail.com – Send me and email asking me my mom’s number or email or whatever. I’ll tell you.
Well I guess I better let you go now. Goodnight. Bye!!
Oh boy…
Religion
So my friend Jimmy or JCal456 from -Little Things Add Up- blog which you can find in my blog roll, wrote a post called, “I don’t believe in god”. I kinda feel like I want to address the topic too. (I want to say thanks for the inspiration!! =D)
Okay so I just wanted to say that I don’t believe in God. I don’t want anyone to think that its my way or the high way. That’s totally not what I’m saying. Me personally, I don’t believe in God. I believe in something higher then us as normal people, but I refuse to call it God because that’s not what I believe in.
I believe, just like my friend, in karma. I believe that if you are an overall good person then you will have an overall good life. But if you are a bad person then you will have a bad life.
Now I don’t have a problem with other people and their religion. Its whatever to me. I’ve never been religious so its whatever. But at the same time, don’t try to come up in here and keep pushing your beliefs on me. I told you what I believe in, you told me yours, if I have questions, I’ll ask and then we’re done. Don’t try to tell me that I’m wrong for thinking the way I do. I hate that with a passion.
My Grandma is awesome. I love her to death, no joke. But ever since she suspected about me being gay, she’s been trying to force her religion on me, (Jehovah’s Witness), and it gets me mad. She tells me being gay is a choice which I can go on about too. But I pretty much don’t think its a choice. And she tells me to pray to get the demons out of me. It gets me mad because, she complains about me never calling her or never talking to her, but when we do, its always about how being gay is bad. Let me live my life the way I want. I didn’t remember ever forcing you to not believe in God. I’m not like that. If you want to know more about what I believe in, ask me. Just don’t assume because I don’t believe in God that I need someone to come rescue me from my demons. I don’t believe in that either.
I know a lot of people aren’t going to agree with the way I practice my “religion” if you want to call it, but its my choice not yours and I’m happy with it. I know its kinda a touchy subject. But I just wanted people to know. I’m trying this thing where I don’t care if people don’t like me because of one little detail about myself, (e.g. being gay, religion, anything else.), and if this is one, then see your way off my page. But if you love me for me and accept me for me and not because I’m gay or because I don’t believe God, then I appreciate it and I thank you. Haha.
Well I better post this sucker. Haha. Bye!!!
Prince_Basil
P.S. If you have anything you want to ask or whatever, leave me a comment. I’d appreciate it. Thanks. =)
In The Eye Of The Beholder
Coming Out
Prince_Basil
P.S. Give me some feedback on what you think would work great for coming out and making it easier. I appreciate it. =)
To: Mr. Ian from M.A.L.E.
Okay, I was looking at my tweets today and I seen one from Xem Van Adams saying something about “J/O” so I replied what “J/O” was and I get an email from Ian from M.A.L.E. telling me what exactly that was. I couldn’t believe someone from M.A.L.E. was sending me an email. So I wanted to thank Ian for answering my question and thanking him for inviting me to M.A.L.E. I can’t believe he wants me to join their blog. Haha. Unfortunately I said no because I didn’t feel like my blog/writing really fit with with their blog style. He said I have an invitation to be able to join whenever I’d like. So Ian and all the M.A.L.E. blog writers, thanks. I greatly appreciate it. Its an honor to be even spoken to. Thanks a lot!!!
Prince_Basil
Dedicated to a special someone… =)
So recently I’ve been talking to this guy. He’s so awesome and cool and whatever. And I’ve been connecting with him a lot lately. And I just feel so happy. Like, you remember my other post about how I wasn’t going to try to make something happen when it wasn’t meant to right? Well, I didn’t. I wasn’t looking for someone to be with, I honestly just told him to read my blog and that was that. But he continued to message me and so I replied. We got to know each other and well, i m not saying I’m in-love with him, but it could potentially lead there if it continues to be this awesome. I literally feel like I haven’t stopped thinking of him since forever. I swear. Everything just feels so right. I miss him when I don’t talk to him. I love looking at his pictures. I love talking to him on the phone. He’s just beyond amazing. I swear. It just feels so good now. I don’t feel depressed. I feel like my life is finally coming together. Its just perfect.
Haha. Well, I guess, I better end this post now. You probably don’t want me repeating myself. Haha. Its okay. Haha. Peace!!
Prince_Basil
Beyoncé Tour Pictures…
Okay so I don’t know who the person who took these pictures of Beyoncé is but he did an amazing job and I’m so happy I found them. If you click on the pictures they get bigger. Let me tell you that I can’t decide which one to keep as my wallpaper on my phone. Haha. Funny but so true. Okay, well, I’m off. Peace!
Prince_Basil
Beyoncé – I Am… Tour 2009 (July 7th, 2009)
Okay, just in case none of y’all knew, I’M EFFING OBSESSED WITH BEYONCÉ!!!
No but really, like I seriously cannot believe the concert was two nights ago. I had heard about it for months and had waited for my tickets and everything. And I can’t believe it came and went by so fast. You don’t even understand. I joined her fan club. I got pre-sale tickets. I learned the Single Ladies dance.
(Make sure you keep it posted, because I’m trying to see how I’m going to make my own YouTube video of me doing the dance. I’m a little shy since I’ve never danced in front of people and I’ve never made a video before.)
I got a little side tracked but I’m back. So we got to the arena, I had huge butterflies in my stomach. I walked into the building with my sisters and my best friend and I couldn’t wait. I find a souvineer stand and right away buy my program book. I made the mistake of not buying it the other time and I wasn’t about to miss out again.
My friend buys hers and I take my sisters to their seats. We sat in different spots. After they sat down my friend and I made our way down to the floor level and sat in our seats. We were close to the main stage, but we sat right next to the second stage. (The B-Stage)
We’re sitting waiting for the show to start and the lights go down. Well, if any of you know, the most loyal Beyoncé fans always find out all the information before hand. So I knew some girl group called Rich Girl came out and performed three songs. They didn’t even last 30 minutes. Personally, I didn’t like them at all. But then again, I was waiting too long for Beyoncé and didn’t really care much for some not popular girls.
After their time was up there was like a 45 minute period that didn’t seem to ever get by. I was sitting there and I couldn’t wait. So get up and ask the man walking around what time it starts. He told me any minute and it seemed like two minutes later the lights shut off and the curtains started to open.
Out from behind the curtain, standing so tall and prepare (so I hope she was), and commanded the crowds attention. She began with, “Baaaaaayyyyyyyyy-bbbbeeee… Seems like ever where I go I seeeeee youuuu… From your eyes, your smile, its like I breatheeeeeeee youuuu… Helplessly I remince, don’t want toooo… Compare nobody to you!” and down the curtains fall and get pulled back to the back and out come the female dancers and Crazy In Love begins.
The way she danced through out the whole song and the whole show made you want to dance. Swinging her hips all around and the big bow on her bottom jumping up and down, you couldn’t do anything but get on your feet and dance.
After a few past album hits, she went into the back and had her first wardrobe change. Meanwhile, the dancers were doing all the dances to Get Me Bodied.
They finished and the mood changed to a bit more slower and calmer mood. The huge screen behind where she stood turned into a vast ocean that expanded end to end with waves crashing down against each other. Slowly she rose from the ground and began singing Smash Into You (one of my personal favorite songs). “Heeeeeaaaaddd down, as I watch my feet take turns hitting the ground…” I was amazed. The wind they had blowing lifted her all white robe up so nicely, making it flow just like the waves behind her.
She ended the song and bells started ringing. The background scene changed from a bright ocean top to a dark ocean bottom. She stands in the middle of the stage and begins singing her next song. In the middle of her singing it, they take her robe off and begin to put on what looks like a wedding dress, except for the fact that its wide and sticks out very wide. They put her crown on with the veil down her hair and back. She continues to sing the song, beginning to hit the high notes, “Aaaaaaaavvvvvvvveeeeee Maaaaaarrrrriiiiiiiiiaaaaaaa…”
She went back and put on a somewhat silicone looking outfit after she had finished singing with her wedding like outfit. It was a very tough looking material and put she on her dark, mirror-like sun glasses and began singing If I Were A Boy with such attitude, that you would have thought someone just recently treated her like dirt.
After the more calm tone ended she went back stage and changed into what I like to call her Diva outfit. She had a long black, leather looking robe on and under it, the plastic accessories that light up. She danced in the dark, not showing she was a bit afraid she may trip and fall. She later one removed the coat and played a little home video of her when she was little. Through out her performance of Radio she had clips of it playing. Dancing almost exactly the same as she did then.
After her fierce performances, her next outfit changed. They began playing a video showing Beyoncé flipping a coin in the air and Sasha Fierce catching it. That’s when Sasha Fierce really took center stage. Out came Beyoncé, lifted up high in the air. She began doing a few poses and flips as she was carried over to the B-Stage all while wearing her ballerina heels.
She landed and continued to command attention. She began with some more previous album hits. Check On It, Irreplaceable, Suga Mama, and Upgrade U.
(For the sake of your eyes I’ll move a little faster.)
She went back for her next wardrobe change which was this long, beautiful somewhat tan color dress. She began to sing At Last and Listen. (I was actually gone. I had ran out to see if I could find some water. No luck.)
After she finished he went back and had her last wardrobe change. Meanwhile, they started playing Single Ladies videos from YouTube. All different kinds. After they were finished playing all of them, that’s when Beyoncé came out in her beautiful black dress with jewels covering many different places on her outfit. (I was still out finding water when they began playing the videos but got my ass over back to my seat just in time, almost tripping down the stairs.)
She came out and that’s when you knew, one, it was the end of the concert, and two, she was going to be so amazing till the very end. She sang so strong and powerful, it made you dance just like her.
She finished that and began singing Halo. She walked through the middle of the aisle and sang while shaking people’s hand. She had such an amazing voice hitting such a high note even though she’s spent 2 hours singing.
She finished the song and it seemed like that was the end. But the screen behind her changed into a picture of Michael Jackson. She began saying a few words and then sang Halo but changed the words from, “Baby, I can feel your halo…” to, “Michael, I can feel your halo…” The tribute was just amazing and was filled with sadness.
She finished that, and ended the concert with saying, “I Am… I Am… I Am… YOURS!!” She did the HOV sign as she was lowered down under the stage.
In my opinion, it was better then the last one, The Beyoncé Experience and by far the best concert I’ve ever been to. I say, money well spent. I have a ton of pictures and if you ever want to see any of them just go to my MySpace page: http://www.myspace.com/alexissegura or check out my Facebook page: http://www.facebook.com/princebasil
Thanks for reading. I greatly appreciate it. This is the longest post I’ve wrote. So please tell me what you thought. It took me a long time. Thanks.
Prince_Basil
Comments…
Okay so I realized that no one has left me a comment. At first I thought it was because my readers just lost interest in the blog. But then my friend told me he couldn’t add a comment when he tried. I wondered why. So I looked at my settings but I didn’t see anything wrong. So then another blogger (Sozo’s Blog) sent me a tweet saying he tried but couldn’t either. So now I know there’s definitely something wrong. I hope what I just did fixed the whole comment thing. I’m not exactly sure what caused it to stop but I hope its fixed now. If not just send me an email: segura.alexis@gmail.com or send me a message on myspace or twitter or facebook or call me or send me a text or whatever. Just let me know however you can so I can see about fixing it. Thanks and I appreciate it. Bye.
Prince_Basil
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