Okay, so I’ve been interested in modeling for sometime. I’ve actually never told anyone. Like NO ONE! I’ve joked about it a couple times but in seriousness now, I would like to be a model.

Okay so this picture took me a bit to put up. I was debating if I wanted all of the world to be able to see me like this or not. But I mean there isn’t anything wrong with the picture. I’m not showing any private parts. So I’m fine. (I think).

But okay I wanted to know, by looking at this picture would you think I’d fit into the male model category or the porn star category? Be honest. I’ve had thoughts about both and whether I’d want to do them. So if you say porn star you’re not hurting my feelings. So just leave me a comment and explain why you choose whichever. And you could even say neither. You look average because blah, blah, blah. Just want some feed back. Haha. Thanks.

Prince_Basil

P.S. I don’t want people to think I’m full of myself. Like… No. Read my blog. My Self Esteem post. Ask any of my friends. I’m not all about myself. I actually don’t like the way I look and that’s why I’m asking for your opinion. Personally I like this picture which is surprising because I’m picky. So just I guess rate my picture. Thanks. =)

Dear Sir,

I wrote to you a while ago. I asked you to come find me because you’re out there and I’m in love with you. I asked you to come find me so we can be happy together and have our dreams be reality, but you never showed. And I’m beginning to wonder if this is all part of my imagination. Am I just dreaming you up because I need something to fill the hole in my heart? Because it feels better having someone who I made up rather then being alone? Because I wanted to find someone who can take this pain away? I don’t know what it is. But I just know that I lost hope in ever finding you. I’ve had too much pain in my life to sit here waiting for you to come. And even though it will end up hurting me now, at least later on I can learn from the pain. I wish you well in the furture if you’re real and if you just happen to be a figment of my imagination then I’m going to let you go. I don’t want to feel like this anymore. I don’t want to feel like someone will be here with me soon if its not going to happen. I rather be alone then be let down. Sir, I will miss the dreams I had of you. Hand in hand, laying next to each other, sitting together, loving each other. Everything… But its time to go. I love you. Goodbye.

Sincerely,
Prince_Basil

So last night I was watching Confessions of a Shopaholic and my dad called. As soon as he called and my mom answered the phone, my dog turned to look at her and started crying.

Now let me fill you in on a little bit about my dog. He’s a pitbull mix. We got him as a little puppy and his mom was a pitbull but we never got to see the dad. We’re going to assume he looks more like the dad’s side since the pitbull look isn’t so dominate. But regardless. He and my dad are really close. And Max (my dog obviously) always gets sad when my dad leaves.

Well, for awhile now, my dad has been leaving for days at a time because he goes to different states to do his work. So my dog has just been here sad like.

Well, like I was saying my dog seen my mom talking to my dad on the phone and he started crying. I just thought that was kinda cool and weird. How does he know it was my dad? I just think that he’s awesome and I’m actually a little jealous of my dog. He gets all of my dad’s attention and he doesn’t do anything, while I work hard to have him notice me. I don’t know. Just felt kinda sad about that since there’s been a lot of sadness lately. =(

Prince_Basil

So lately I’ve been feeling depressed and I’ve been feeling so alone. Idk why but I’m just sad. And I don’t know what it is but it seems like everytime I turn on the tv I see two people kissing or two people getting married and I just… I feel happy for them even though they’re acting but at the same time its like, when will that happen for me? The man that I fell in love with, who took all my insecurities away, who made me feel like I was everything, doesn’t want to be with me. And to me I feel betrayed. Like I was cheated out of my life goal. Like someone was holding my life goal in front of me and when I finally reach it, finally can taste it, someone decides I’m too happy and pulls the rug from under my feet and there goes my life goal out the window. What is wrong with me? What did I do to deserve this? Is it karma? Did I do something bad? I just don’t know. What do I do with myself? I thought I had everything going for me and now I don’t have anything. And its not like I can just get someone else to replace him. Its not that easy. I can forget about him either. I need him in my life. But at the same time I want him to be mine. Better yet, I want to be all his. Tell me… What do I do? Please give me some feed back. Send me an email, segura.alexis@gmail.com, or send me an IM to my AIM, princebasil19 or my GTalk, segura.alexis. I just need someone to tell me what becomes of a guy who’s always had his heart broken and now feels like this time its just shattered. It hurts so much that I don’t… I just hurts. But send me a message please. Tell me what to do. Thanks.

Prince_Basil

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Hey guys what’s going? Well I was busy eating cereal (Rasin Bran Crunch) I decided to post something since I really haven’t these few days.

Well, I GOT MY NEW PHONE!! Remember that one that I was talking about before? Well, I finally got one. Haha. I’m so happy. This phone is awesome. Okay to get a picture of what this phone is like imagine the iPhone 3G but like 10x better. You can be listening to music and on the internet (which isn’t mobile web. It internet like the computer.) and sending text messages all at the same time. Its so amazing.

And I haven’t even got to the best part. The touchscreen is cool but it has a slide out QWERTY keyboard. Isn’t that awesome? Okay maybe not so much, but I can connect my phone to the computer and I can sync my iTunes songs to my phone. Isn’t that awesome? I love this phone so much. I’m glad I got it. Haha.

But I suppose I will talk to you guys later. I have to head off to work now. Ugh!! I have something to share about that. Haha. Have a nice day. Byee!!

Prince_Basil

P.S. That picture is one of the first I took with my phone. Haha. AWESOME!!!

Okay so here is my little bit of jeolousy for the day. haha.

See that ass right there? It's huge! Okay well maybe not huge but it sure is something. Well as for me, I wasn't born with much. haha. I don't have a very big ass. I mean seriously. You can ask anyone who's pretty much seen it, there's nothing there. haha. And for the longest time I had been thinking of… (this is embarrassing)… butt implants. Yes you're wondering, 'How old is this guy?' Well I'm only 19 but regardless. I figure if I were meant to have an ass, it would have grown by now. Seeing as how it hasn't, I think I have to take things into my own hands. I wear my boxer briefs, a pair of basketball shorts, and then pants on top of that. Anywhere I go, thats how I dress. But I'm tired of doing that. I want to just wear underwear and jeans and still be able to fill them up. But seeing as thats not going to happen on its own, butt implants are the next best thing.

Yes! I know there are risks to getting something like that done. But I really don't care. I want it done and more then likely I will get it done in the future. But I just kinda want to know your guy's opinion. If you want to see my ass I'll show you. Of course it will be in underwear because… Well becase I said. But put a comment up on what you think about this whole idea. Thanks

Prince_Basil

Well, I don’t know if you guys have heard of Beyoncé’s song called Smash Into You but I love this song. Its one of my favorite songs ever.

Well originally it was written by The-Dream & John McLaughlin & it was called Smack Into You. Well, he never used it for his album so Beyoncé got a hold of it and she changed Smack into Smash. Well, I was curious to see what the other version sounded like. Well, I found many different ones where YouTubbers would blend the songs together and it would be both Beyoncé & John McLaughlin in the song. But it wasn’t mixed right. Well, I found this one guy who put both of them perfectly together. I love his version and I think its the most amazing song ever. It literally gives me chills when I play on my iPod with the volume really loud. haha.

But anyways… I’ve included a link where you can download the song yourself [Click Here] and if you play this video below you can hear it. Its amazing. Haha. Okay, well, I guess I’ll talk to you later. Bye!!

Prince_Basil

Okay, so just recently I switched my cell phone carrier over to Sprint. I wanted a phone similar to the one I had then but not one from the same company. I had a Samsung and now I have the LG Rumour2. Its a nice phone, don't get me wrong. But I just don't like it.

Well, Sprint has this new phone that just came out not too long ago. Actually it probably came out about two weeks ago. Its called the Palm Pre. That's what it looks like above. It's touch screen. It has a QWERTY keyboard. It slides up. It has a 3.0 megapixel camera. It has all these other awesome features. The only problem is that you have to be put onto a wait list to get one because they ran out and you can't order it online.

With Sprint you start a new contract but you have 30 days to cancel your account or change your phone. Well, I went in an put myself on the waiting list since I still had 20 days left. They told me they would call me whenever they got more in. Well I've been waiting 5 days and nothing. The man told me about a week at the very most so I was calling to make sure everything was going good. Well it turns out that they either already called and the 2 day hold expired or I was never signed up. I'm pissed because this is what I was afraid of and it just so happens that I don't get to get one until they call me again.

Well my 30 days are half ways done. I only have 15 days left. What happens when its over and they call me then? Like I can't afford to buy both phones. Ugh!! I'm just pissed. And I want the phone I've been waiting for. NOW!! haha. But I'm definately going to become a bitch about everything if I don't get the phone I want. They're going to hate it that they might even give me the phone for free. haha. But yeah. Byee!!

Prince_Basil

So recently I've been feeling a little frisky I guess you can say it. I've wanted to do things that I normally wouldn't want to.

See when I first realized I was gay I also realized what gay sex was. I told myself that I wouldn't be able to be the guy who's…I guess the bottom. So from 9th grade, (thats when I realized I was gay), until recently, I've been what you call a top. But lately I've been feeling the urge to do things that I wouldn't even consider. I've wanted to get the biggest dick I can find and get pounded. I wanted to try some real freaky stuff. I've wanted the other guy to take advantage of me. Just freaky things.

I used to hate looking at asses. I was more of a dick person. Always like dick more then ass but I would never let a dick inside of me. I used to think guys who ate out their partners was gross. But like I said, I just feel different about it all.

I used to like big, huge dicks and not pay attention to any thing that wasn't as big as me and now I could care less. I used to think uncut was nasty and now I wish my dick was uncut. I used to think that a dick that was curved was ugly but now that turns me on.

And its not just dick and sex that I've felt strange about. I hated feet. Really hated them. I used to think they were the most disgusting things on our body. And recently… haha… Feet have kinda been turning me on. I don't know why but it just has.

But see here's the problem with some of these feelings. I hope no one takes offense to what I say. But whenever I think of a bottom guy I think of a fem guy. Why? I don't know. I just do. And I didn't ever want to be the guy who's fem. Not saying there's anything wrong with that because there totally isn't, but I just always wanted to be the more masculine type. And me feeling all these weird things kinda makes me feel like I'm starting to become more fem. Like I said, nothing wrong with that. I just don't feel like that's what I want to be.

I don't know. Maybe I'm just over reacting and need to go have some wild freaky sex. haha. But that's what's been going on. Kinda weird. haha.

So lately I've been thinking about my relationship status. To tell you the truth… I'm single. Nothing that I was hiding. Just that when I think single I think of lonely and deressed. I feel unwanted and uncared for. And I know this is a little extreme but I feel worthless. I feel like if someone doesn't love me or if I can be with someone, I'm useless.

I've always had self esteem issues. I've hate many different parts of my body because they're not to my liking. And when I'm with someone, it makes me feel as if those insecurities aren't even there. Like they truely love me. I guess you can say I wear my heart on my sleeve and fall easily in love. I don't mean to. It just kinda happens.

When the relationship ends with that person I feel like its because I did something wrong or that he finally noticed all the things I was insecure about and decided to leave me because he didn't like it. And it sucks because I get my self-esteem boosted and later on it just gets knocked down lower then before. I don't like that feeling and I've never really recovered from it.

Another thing that I tend to notice is that I fall in love fast and expect the other person to do the same and move the relationship forward. For example: We go out. Two weeks later – I love you. Three weeks – I'm IN love with you. About a month, month and a half – I wanna marry you.

I just want marriage so bad and I think because I want it so badly that I guess I rush into things without noticing and end up ruining a relationship that could perhaps have had the potential to be more then just a little boyfriend thing. And I think that's why I'm single also.

I want a good man who can take care of me and be honest with me and love me and be IN love with me. To not be afraid to show his affection to me out in public for the world to see. Someone who would stay up all night just to make sure I got better when I was sick. Or who would risk his own life to save mine even though I wouldn't want him to. Someone who can be my boyfriend and future husband. And who doesn't care if no one in the world approves as long as he has me.

I know you're out there. I can feel it. And if by the slightest chance you are reading this, just know that I'm waiting for you. And I need you in my life to feel complete. You have the part of me that is missing and I want it back along with you. And I promise not to judge you, or make fun of you, or hurt you. I don't know you but I know that I'm already in love with you. I just need you to come with me so I can show you…

I guess I will let you guys go. And like I said mystery man, please come to me.

Prince_Basil

Okay. So I filled out a form called "FAFSA" and I figured that since my parents made too much money that they wouldn't qualify for any grants. I'm not sure if you guys know what a FAFSA is but its pretty much a form that determines the amount of money you are given (if any) to go to college. Well lately we (my family and I) have been going through some hard times. My dad hasn't been getting paid the way he used to. So we have been really struggling for just certain things. My mom is behind on a lot of the bills they have and it just sucks.

Well you're probably wondering what that has to do with college. Well my plan was/is to start in the fall. I had not scholarships no nothing. My parents were going to pay for it. Well seeing as how we have literally no money, I kinda figured college wasn't in my future. At least not this year. And I was kinda depressed because I had already taken a year off and I'm tired of not going to school. haha. Crazy I know. But I really want to begin my own life and college is where I needed to start that.

Well here comes along my best friend Erica. She had filled hers out and told me she's going to school. That I should try it out. So I was like fine. Let me try. She helped me through some of the stuff and it turns out that I'm getting more money then her. I can get up to $5,300 for the semester. So I'm jumping up and down all excited because I finally got my chance. I'm going to school and it just means so much. I'll use about $2,000 at the very most in school and the rest is for living expenses. So I'm finally getting a car. Not a top of the line, brand spankin' new one. But at least something good. haha. So I'm so excited and I can't wait.

Isn't that amazing. haha. I'm finally going to school and getting my education on. haha. YAY ME!!!!! haha. But that's what I wanted to tell you guys. I hope you guys are happy for me. haha. And I will keep you posted on anything else that happensa. haha. Byee!!

Prince_Basil

YAAAAAYYYYYY!!!!!!!! HAHA. MY 50TH BLOG POST. I FEEL SO HAPPY!!! HAHA. I CAN’t BELIEVE ITS BEEN 50 BLOGS. HAHA. I MEAN COMPARED TO ALL THE BLOGS I FOLLOW AND WHAT NOT ITS PROBABLY NOTHING. BUT TO ME, SOMEONE WHO DIDN’T KNOW EXACTLY WHAT BLOGGING WAS. I STILL DON’T BUT I’M GOING WITH PEOPLES EXAMPLES. SOMEONE WHO USED TO THINK WRITING MY FEELINGS DOWN FOR SOMEONE ELSE TO READ WAS NOT OKAY. I’VE REALLY CHANGED. AND I’M HAPPY AND PROUD OF MYSELF FOR STICKING WITH MY BLOG TO MY 50TH POST. I SEE HOW OTHER BLOGS HAVE MANY WRITERS/AUTHORS AND I KINDA WANTED TO DO THAT TOO. BUT THEN THIS BLOG WOULDN’T BE MY PERSONAL BLOG ANYMORE. HAHA. SO FOR NOW, I WILL JUST BE THE ONLY AUTHOR OF THIS BLOG. HAHA. ALSO. I THINK MY BLOG WILL TURN MORE EXPLICT. I THINK I’LL BE TALKING ABOUT MORE THINGS THAT I NORMALLY WOULDN’T MENTION TO PEOPLE.NOT SAYING THAT THIS WILL BE A PORN BLOG. BUT IT MAY HAVE A FEW THINGS THAT WILL EXCITE YOU A BIT. HAHA. BUT I JUST WANT TO SAY THAT I HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOY MY BLOG AS MUCH AS I ENJOY WRITING IT. OKAY WELL I HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY AND EXPECT A BLOG AGAIN TODAY. HAHA. OKAY. BYEE!!!

OKAY SO MY LAST BLOG I MENTIONED THAT I GOT A NEW PHONE BUT RETURNED MY iPOD TOUCH. WELL I’M USING MY PHONE AND I REMEMBERED ABOUT AN APPLICATION THAT I HAD SEEN ONLINE ONCE. IT WAS A WHILE AGO SO I FIGURED IT WASN’T GOING TO BE AROUND ANYMORE. SO I LOOK UP “OPERA MINI”. BOY LET ME TELL YOU! HAHA. THAT APP WORKS SO MUCH FASTER THEN MY OWN PHONES WEB BROWSER. HAHA. I LOVE IT AND I LOVE THE WAY YOU CAN SET IT FOR FULLSCREEN. LIKE IT JUST IS SO AWESOME. HAHA. I’M EXCITED BECAUSE LIKE I MENTIONED BEFORE, I AM NOT KEEPING THIS PHONE. IN THE NEXT WEEK OR TWO I WILL BE RETURNING IT AND GETTING MYSELF THE HTC TOUCH PRO. I’VE WANTED THAT PHONE FOR THE LONGEST TIME. AND I KNOW THAT IF THIS PHONE WORKS WITH OPERA MINI THEN THE HTC TOUCH PRO WILL DEFINATELY WORK. THAT IS UNLESS I LIKE THE WEB BROWSER THAT COMES ON THE HTC. BUT I’M SURE THAT EVEN IF I DO LIKE IT. I’LL STILL DOWNLOAD OPERA MINI BECAUSE IT WORKS THE BEST. HAHA. AND HAVE YOU EVER WANTED TO SAVE A PICTURE ON YOUR PHONE BUT YOU CAN’T BECAUSE YOU EITHER DON’T KNOW HOW OR YOU REALLY JUST CAN’T. WELL WITH OPERA YOU CAN SAVE ANY PICTURE. HAHA. YOU PROBABLY THINK I’M LAME BUT I’M ALWAYS SAVING PICTURES. HAHA. BUT YEAH. SO THATS ALL THIS POST WAS REALLY ABOUT. I’M JUST EXCITED. HAHA. OH AND ONE MORE THING… ONE MORE POST UNTIL I’M AT 50!!! HAHA. BYE!!

OKAY SO I HAVE SOME TRAGIC NEWS. I RETURNED MY IPOD TOUCH. HAHA. OKAY
SO ITS NOT TR.GIC NEWS BUT STILL. HAHA. I FIGURED I WOULD BUY MYSELF
A NEW PHONE BECAUSE I NEEDED IT. HAHA. BUT ANYWAYS. SO I RETURNED IT
AND NOW I BOUGHT MYSELF THE LG RUMOR 2. ITS PRETTY COOL. I CAN'T
COMPLAIN. I HAVE 30 DAYS TO RETURN IT IF I HAPPEN NOT TO LIKE IT. SO
I'M PROBABLY GOING TO DO THAT AND GET MY SELF THE HTC TOUCH PRO. I
LOVE THE WAY THAT PHONE LOOKS AND EVERYTHING. HOPEFULLY I'LL BUY IT
SOON BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO SPEND MONEY ON A PHONE THAT I WANT JUST
BECAUSE I TOOK TOO LONG TO BUY IT. BUT I JUST REALIZED THAT IF I DO
GET IT I'LL PROBABLY HAVE TO GET A MORE EXPENSIVE PLAN WHICH IS NOT
OKAY. BUT OH WELL. HAHA. WELL I'M GOING TO LET YOU GUYS GO. SORRY IF
THERE ARE ANY MISTAKES. I'M USING MY PHONE AND ITS KIND OF DIFFERENT.
HAHA. OKAY GOOD NIGHT!!!