I haven’t talked about this to many people because its… Well, its no one’s business. But since I’ve been in Pittsburgh, I’ve actually had time to process what has actually happened.

A couple weeks ago, I had a best friend. Anyone who knows me, would know that about me. We were friends since junior high. I think we met through a friend. She’ll probably tell you she seen me alone at lunch and decided to talk to me. Haha. Pretty funny but whatev.

Pretty much from then on we were friends. We talked through out high school. My mom yelled at her once & scared her. Haha. I was awesome. But it wasn’t until close to the end of senior year that we really got close. At least I think… That’s really when she became my best friend. We went to each other’s prom. We went to each other’s graduation. (I cried at hers.) We were as close as you could imagine.

I started working at PetSmart, and I think I started kinda not talking to her as much because I was busy. Actually we had many of times like that. I’d be busy to text her and she would get upset. Like any friendship, we would have our ups & downs. You know. Whatever. The norm.

Once I became a manager I made the suggestion that I should add her to my cell phone contract. Seemed like a great idea at the time. We went down and got her a phone because at the time she didn’t have a phone she could rely on.

So it was set. New cell phone plan on my account. New phone, which she copied me because I had the same phone. Haha. We were all set. Sure I had to pay a little more on my bill but I didn’t care, still don’t, because money wasn’t something I was worried about. I wasn’t am not greedy, I never really have been with my money. Its always been whatever.

So, after that she felt like she needed to try to give me money. As always I told her not to worry about it. We went to see Beyoncé in concert because everyone knows that Beysus is my idol. I bought all four tickets, set me back almost $500. Not that big of a problem because I wanted my bestie to go with me. She told me she would pay me back and this and that. Again, I didn’t care. Money wasn’t that important.

Side note before we go any further, I’m not rich. I’m actually pretty far from it. But seeing as how money wasn’t ever important to me, if I had, I had it. If I didn’t, that was okay with me.

So I would pay for random things. I’d put gas in her car, I’d buy stuff for her car, it was no biggie. We’d go out to eat, we’d go buy stupid stuff at Walmart, whatev. She honestly was kinda like my wife… We even went around saying that we got married February 31st. Yeah, yeah, I know its not real, but still. It made it fun!

Slowly, our friendship was deteriorating but we didn’t know it. Once I had to move out of my house and into my moms apartment, she was there for me. She helped me move, she took me home after work, she did everything. And honestly, I think that’s really when our friendship started going down hill.

She slowly started getting irritated that she had to pick me up from work. I understood. It wasn’t her responsibility. But seeing as how I didn’t know how to drive, I depended on her. Don’t get me wrong, I hated the fact that I depended on her. I don’t like depending on too many people and adding her to the list was def not easy.

She started teaching me how to drive. I was a nervous wreck but soon enough I started getting better.

Well one day, she called and asked me if I was off. I told her yes. I also told her I wanted her to meet Jesus, my boyfriend. She told me that he should just pick me up. She knows very well that I hate depending on people and its hard for me to ask someone else to pick me up. So I said that never mind I would take a taxi, it was no big deal. She got upset and said no, she’d be there. Then she said, “…just ruin my plans why don’t you.” That’s when I got mad. I had no problem taking a cab. I’ve done it before, no biggie. So we hang up and She’s texting me saying she’s going to pick me up. Fine. I sit and wait. She’s sending me a few texts and I don’t respond because if I’m going to say anything to her, it would be in person. About 45 minutes later, she tells me that I should call a cab. So now I’m completely furious.

I waited another 45 minutes for the cab to show. When it got here we went home. The stupid driver was texting and driving at the same time. The most irritating and stupidest thing you could do. I ask him to stop and he doesn’t listen. Runs a red light and we almost get hit by a car. I yell at him and tell him to pull over. He keeps apologizing and what not but I had it. I didn’t bother paying him. I walked the rest of the way home. I got home and was so upset I literally was about to cry. I called Jesus and asked him to come over. He did and we just chilled and watched movies.

Then my best friend calls. Of course I’m upset and don’t answer it because one, I’m with Jesus and I don’t want him to see me upset like that. And two, I wanted her to know exactly how I felt in person. I get a voicemail and it pretty much says that’s she’s done picking me up. I was being very immature about everything. We need to get together and go to Sprint and separate our phone account. Whatever. The whole thing… At the time I was too upset to care. I just let it go and didn’t pay any attention because I had had enough that day.

The next morning I text her and let her know exactly how I felt. I text it to her because at this point, I didn’t want to see her anymore. I told her that what happen the night before. I told her I wasn’t mad until she made that stupid comment. And I told her that I was done and didn’t want to be bothered with her. We argued a little back and forth. Didn’t really care at that point. After that I put her number on my blacklist so that I wouldn’t see any of her text messages anymore. I was fine. I thought I would be upset but I wasn’t. It was whatever, she hurt me to the point where I didn’t care anymore.

A few days go by and I get a picture message from her. See with the messaging app that we use, once we go over three text messages, it automatically converts to a picture message so it could send it once instead of however many messages. Well I open it and read it. I guess blacklisting someone stops only their texts but not their picture messages. She goes on to say that I need go stop ignoring her and that I need to talk to her so we could set up a time when we can go separate the phone account. Of course I text her back and tell her that I can do it Saturday but it had to be morning because I have stuff I need to do before I leave for Pittsburgh. I also tell her that we were going to go to the Sprint by my work since it’s the closest one. She proceeds to tell me to stop acting all grown and that I run shit. Then she said it will be at 1:30. I told her that I couldn’t. I had things to get done that day and it would just have to be done once I got back. She then said that I would have to pay the bill on my own then. That there pissed me off and I had had enough of her treating me like shit. I told her that that was fine because unlike her, I don’t mind paying $200 to get rid of her. If that’s what it took then that’s what I’ll do. I told her to never contact me again, not even to respond to that text. I called Sprint 10 minutes later, asked them to change all the passwords so she could access the account. I reported her phone stolen so that she could never use it again because it would show up stolen when they’d try to activate it again. I cancelled her account and that was it. I haven’t heard from her since and honestly, I don’t really care.

The thing that bothered me the most was just the way she treated me. I found out later that the reason why she didn’t want to pick me up that night is because she had a date. Which I would have been so happy for and would have gladly taken a cab so she could go on. But she didn’t tell me. And she dumped me and treated me like shit for some random boy. I’ve never been the type to get a boyfriend or boy toy or whatever and completely dump my friends and just pay attention to the guy. I think that’s stupid and I hate people like that. I understand you are going to spend time with you significant other. That’s understandable. But to completely treat your friends like shit and devote all your time to a boy is stupid. Once the boy is gone, you will have lost all your friends. And I’m not one to put up with that. So I didn’t.

My bestie gave me a ring for my birthday because she knows how much I have always wanted one. Its nice and awesome. She bought it at Jared. When she gave it to me, it had so much meaning. I felt like it was a symbol of our friendship and how awesome we were. Now, most of the time I don’t know where its at if its not on my finger. And it has no meaning. To me it’s an accessory that I wear whenever I feel like it and if I don’t, its whatever.

I wish I could say that I miss my friend, but I don’t. I honestly feel fine. I thought that I was going to be hurt and cry and devastated. But I think it was time that we went our separate ways. I’m definitely not trying to make her seem like a bitch. If that were the case, this entry would have been meaner. But I honestly don’t see how I was immature about the whole situation. And part of me feels like I was used, but I can’t let that part become dominate because then it will question our entire friendship. I liked it. I don’t like how it ended but we live and we learn. She’s going t be alright, and I know I will be too. I guess life has a funny way of teaching us lesson.

Anyways… if you read the entire thing, thank you. I love you forever! If you didn’t, well… I guess you didn’t see this did you. Haha. Anyway… Its time to start Chapter 2 of this crazy book called Life!! Haha.

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